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Matt

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"Coming to BYU in 2010 I remember I thought all my problems were going to go away. I was moving to a different state, looking forward to making new friends, and was going into a far better environment than when I was in Las Vegas. I honestly thought that I could start anew and my problems wouldn’t follow me.. Well, I was wrong. What I learned is that you are still yourself no matter where you go. You can move, change your phone number, get new friends, and do all of that, but you are still you, until you’re truly honest with yourself so you can change your core.. I started using drugs when I was 15 in Las Vegas. I never thought I had any mental illness problems. I had friends, a good family, and I didn’t cry in my bedroom every night. I didn’t have any mental problems, I had a drug problem. In Provo I still struggled with my self-esteem, I still wanted to use drugs and alcohol, I still struggled with girls, and I was still an addict. Just moving to Provo did not chang...
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Whitney

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I think at some point in my life I decided there were two types of people: people that didn’t push themselves hard enough and never reached their potential, and the other people that pushed themselves too hard and gave all they had. It was an easy choice for me - I would much rather push myself too hard than fall short of the person I could be. I thought holding myself to extreme standards of righteousness and perfection was what made me strong. I wore my busy schedule and stress as a badge of honor. This sounds terrible, but I thought people who practiced self-acceptance and self-care were so dumb! I actually remember thinking to myself “they don’t get it.” Overtime I think that process of thought began to weigh very heavily not only on my mind but on my body. I started having these little.. Well I know now I was having anxiety attacks, but at the time I thought it was just dramatic episodes because I was weak and not working hard enough. So every time I was having a panic att...
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